picto-drabble part II (Ohno's version)
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TITLE: SHE THOUGHT ME HOW
CHARACTERS: Ohno Satoshi, Kobayashi Ryoko
PAIRING: Ohno/Ryoko
RATINGS: PG
DISCLAIMER: The only thing i own in this story is the plot... All pics are from and thanks to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
azraqey
OHNO SATOSHI’s POV
I should have seen it coming…
I should have seen sooner the shine in her eyes when she looks at me, the smile on her lips whenever I am around.
I should have understood sooner why she always seemed to be there for me… I should have read the signs…
Or maybe I did, I was just too happy to stop it. Maybe I enjoyed being with her so much that I unknowingly tried to extend our time together.
But it had to be done. I’ve known since I was young that I was a man who didn’t know how to love, a man who shouldn’t be allowed to love. I cannot hurt her more than how I already had.
I thought we were happy… I thought he enjoyed being with me… I thought I was part of the reason why there was a smile on his lips, why he looked peaceful… I thought… I thought I meant something to him… At least even just a part of how much he meant to me…
I was too foolish! I didn’t even try to stop my budding feelings for him. When I realized that I liked him, I didn’t even attempt to move away, to hinder that like before it grew to a full-pledge love. I was too stupid that I didn’t even try to put it to a stop.
But maybe even if I did, it wouldn’t have mattered. Because every little thing he does endears him to me more… When he came by after my sister got sick to check on her and me, I knew there’s no stopping my feelings.
So I did the most normal thing to do. I confessed to him. I gave him a letter that expressed all my feelings for him. I told him I like him.
But then he turned his back to me… I was shocked, but not shocked enough for me not to reach out and grab his arm. I wanted to ask him why, but he just shook my hand away.
I stood there for a while, crying. I never expected my first heartache to be like this. I felt my world shatter when he left.
I didn’t see even glimpse of him for a few days after that. I didn’t try to call, I wasn’t that bold or that thick to do that after his rejection. I thought life will lead me on. And one day, over a week after my first heartache, I saw him again.
Maybe I really am too foolish, because the moment I saw him again, I was unable to stop myself. I ran to him, I hugged him from the back.
He must have known that it was me, because he didn’t even look shocked. He simply froze.
“Will you please tell me why?” I asked. Really, that was all I really wanted to know. Because after his rejection, that has been the only thing on my mind. Why couldn’t he accept me? What was wrong with me that he couldn’t like me back?
“I can never look at you that way…” he said, taking hold of my hand. I felt my world shatter, I grew weak.
I felt my hands let go of him and I stood there watching him leave. There was something telling about how his back had slumped when he walked away and then I realized. I was making it hard, not only for myself, but for the both of us. I thought that it was about time that I let my feelings go…
Back to OHNO SATOSHI’s POV
I never expected to see her that soon, after that rejection. I knew I had hurt her too much already. I didn’t want to make it worse. But I did see her again and I knew that I hurt her again too. But I thought it was better that way, I don’t know how to love. I am not capable of loving. If I did accept her, I’d end up hurting her more.
I tried my best not to go to places she would be. I know that seeing me would only hurt her more and more and I hated myself for that. But I did see her again, one afternoon. I heard my name being called. When I turned around, I saw that it was her.
There was a smile on her lips already when she walked up to me and I felt my heart twinge just a tiny bit. She said she had a late night and wondered if it would be all right if we walk home together.
I nodded, so we did. Before we could go far though, it started raining. She had her umbrella but I didn’t have mine so we had to share. I hesitated, knowing that it would be awkward but she said it was all right. She said she realized that she’s been selfish for pushing her feelings to me. I said I was glad, but strangely, I didn’t feel all that happy. In fact, it was as if my heart started weeping.
When we reached her place, she handed me her umbrella, saying that I should use it to go home. It was still raining then.
I knew that the logical thing to do is accept so I did. When our fingers touched as I reached for the umbrella, I felt electricity surging to my body.
“I hope we could still be friends” I heard her say before she turned her back and reached for the door. I felt a lone tear escaping from my eyes. For some reason, those words of her made me really want to cry.
Shattered and confused, I turned around and left, never knowing that when I did, she turned around to look at me one last time.
When I reached my home, I was already feeling very weak. My knees were shaking, my hands were quaking, and my lips were already trembling. Before I could even enter the door, the tears I tried to keep to myself ever since I left her at her doorway chased each other as they escaped from my eyes. It was my first time crying like that.
Then the memories I’ve had with her started flashing to me, the way she looks, the way he talks the way she smiles.
I remembered how I always felt good when I am with her, even though at times she still confuses me.
I remembered how she always made me feel at ease with the world, how when I’m with her, I always find a reason to smile.
And then came the grandest question, “Could this innocent girl have managed to teach my heart how to fall in love?” Barely had that question formulated in my mind when I looked up and it hit me. She had, after all, thought me how to love when she showed me how.
I went back, running as fast as I could, barely even noticing that the rain had already stopped. The moment she came out of the door, I hugged her, without an ounce of me holding back. I told her that I was sorry, for hurting her, for not realizing what I felt sooner. For thinking that I was not capable of falling in love.
I felt myself crying once again when I felt her hug me back, especially when she said she could teach me how. With tears still falling, I chuckled, “You don’t have to… Because I’ve already learned that I’ve fallen for you too…”
For that was the thing that only she is capable of doing, and I never felt an ounce of regret of accepting her in my heart.
For even with the simplest things she could and would make me smile.
She thought me how to see, through a span of darkness, a spark of light.
And most of all, she thought me that purity’s reach is so far and so wide, because the purity of her heart reached me through the darkness of the night.
-----FIN-----
my first angsty (sort of) fic...
my first Ohno featured fic...
my second picto-drabble...
so, tell me what you think...
comments/critics are welcomed... :)
TITLE: SHE THOUGHT ME HOW
CHARACTERS: Ohno Satoshi, Kobayashi Ryoko
PAIRING: Ohno/Ryoko
RATINGS: PG
DISCLAIMER: The only thing i own in this story is the plot... All pics are from and thanks to
azraqey OHNO SATOSHI’s POV
I should have seen it coming…
I should have seen sooner the shine in her eyes when she looks at me, the smile on her lips whenever I am around.
I should have understood sooner why she always seemed to be there for me… I should have read the signs…
Or maybe I did, I was just too happy to stop it. Maybe I enjoyed being with her so much that I unknowingly tried to extend our time together.
But it had to be done. I’ve known since I was young that I was a man who didn’t know how to love, a man who shouldn’t be allowed to love. I cannot hurt her more than how I already had.
KOBAYASHI RYOKO’s POV
I thought we were happy… I thought he enjoyed being with me… I thought I was part of the reason why there was a smile on his lips, why he looked peaceful… I thought… I thought I meant something to him… At least even just a part of how much he meant to me…
I was too foolish! I didn’t even try to stop my budding feelings for him. When I realized that I liked him, I didn’t even attempt to move away, to hinder that like before it grew to a full-pledge love. I was too stupid that I didn’t even try to put it to a stop.
But maybe even if I did, it wouldn’t have mattered. Because every little thing he does endears him to me more… When he came by after my sister got sick to check on her and me, I knew there’s no stopping my feelings.
So I did the most normal thing to do. I confessed to him. I gave him a letter that expressed all my feelings for him. I told him I like him.
But then he turned his back to me… I was shocked, but not shocked enough for me not to reach out and grab his arm. I wanted to ask him why, but he just shook my hand away.
I stood there for a while, crying. I never expected my first heartache to be like this. I felt my world shatter when he left.
I didn’t see even glimpse of him for a few days after that. I didn’t try to call, I wasn’t that bold or that thick to do that after his rejection. I thought life will lead me on. And one day, over a week after my first heartache, I saw him again.
Maybe I really am too foolish, because the moment I saw him again, I was unable to stop myself. I ran to him, I hugged him from the back.
He must have known that it was me, because he didn’t even look shocked. He simply froze.
“Will you please tell me why?” I asked. Really, that was all I really wanted to know. Because after his rejection, that has been the only thing on my mind. Why couldn’t he accept me? What was wrong with me that he couldn’t like me back?
“I can never look at you that way…” he said, taking hold of my hand. I felt my world shatter, I grew weak.
I felt my hands let go of him and I stood there watching him leave. There was something telling about how his back had slumped when he walked away and then I realized. I was making it hard, not only for myself, but for the both of us. I thought that it was about time that I let my feelings go…
Back to OHNO SATOSHI’s POV
I never expected to see her that soon, after that rejection. I knew I had hurt her too much already. I didn’t want to make it worse. But I did see her again and I knew that I hurt her again too. But I thought it was better that way, I don’t know how to love. I am not capable of loving. If I did accept her, I’d end up hurting her more.
I tried my best not to go to places she would be. I know that seeing me would only hurt her more and more and I hated myself for that. But I did see her again, one afternoon. I heard my name being called. When I turned around, I saw that it was her.
There was a smile on her lips already when she walked up to me and I felt my heart twinge just a tiny bit. She said she had a late night and wondered if it would be all right if we walk home together.
I nodded, so we did. Before we could go far though, it started raining. She had her umbrella but I didn’t have mine so we had to share. I hesitated, knowing that it would be awkward but she said it was all right. She said she realized that she’s been selfish for pushing her feelings to me. I said I was glad, but strangely, I didn’t feel all that happy. In fact, it was as if my heart started weeping.
When we reached her place, she handed me her umbrella, saying that I should use it to go home. It was still raining then.
I knew that the logical thing to do is accept so I did. When our fingers touched as I reached for the umbrella, I felt electricity surging to my body.
“I hope we could still be friends” I heard her say before she turned her back and reached for the door. I felt a lone tear escaping from my eyes. For some reason, those words of her made me really want to cry.
Shattered and confused, I turned around and left, never knowing that when I did, she turned around to look at me one last time.
When I reached my home, I was already feeling very weak. My knees were shaking, my hands were quaking, and my lips were already trembling. Before I could even enter the door, the tears I tried to keep to myself ever since I left her at her doorway chased each other as they escaped from my eyes. It was my first time crying like that.
Then the memories I’ve had with her started flashing to me, the way she looks, the way he talks the way she smiles.
I remembered how I always felt good when I am with her, even though at times she still confuses me.
I remembered how she always made me feel at ease with the world, how when I’m with her, I always find a reason to smile.
And then came the grandest question, “Could this innocent girl have managed to teach my heart how to fall in love?” Barely had that question formulated in my mind when I looked up and it hit me. She had, after all, thought me how to love when she showed me how.
I went back, running as fast as I could, barely even noticing that the rain had already stopped. The moment she came out of the door, I hugged her, without an ounce of me holding back. I told her that I was sorry, for hurting her, for not realizing what I felt sooner. For thinking that I was not capable of falling in love.
I felt myself crying once again when I felt her hug me back, especially when she said she could teach me how. With tears still falling, I chuckled, “You don’t have to… Because I’ve already learned that I’ve fallen for you too…”
For that was the thing that only she is capable of doing, and I never felt an ounce of regret of accepting her in my heart.
For even with the simplest things she could and would make me smile.
She thought me how to see, through a span of darkness, a spark of light.
And most of all, she thought me that purity’s reach is so far and so wide, because the purity of her heart reached me through the darkness of the night.
-----FIN-----
my first Ohno featured fic...
my second picto-drabble...
so, tell me what you think...
comments/critics are welcomed... :)
